PHATBEATZENT PTRILLA
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Saturday, October 29, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
LYRIC(ALL)Y DIVERSE
LIVE FAST DIE YOUNG
LOOK THROUGH MY EYES
BE DA SPIT ON MY TONGUE
DA BULLET IN DA INNOCENT LIVING
WIT PAIN NO EARS CAN HEAR
CARING LESS IF YA BALLN OR SHOT
CALLN DIS FLESH BEEN SHOT BY DA CALL
YA PHONIES BE CALLING DA GETO IS FALLN
DIS SCHOOL SYSTEM FAILN MY KIND
HATEFUL PEOPLE CANT LET GO THEY GAMES
THINKING IM AKON SO ME THEY BLAME
NEVER TAKING TIME TO STOP AND THINK
BEFORE THEY SPIN THEY WEB OF LIES
STILL I RISE LIKE A ROSE OUT OF CONCRETE
ROOTS DEEPER DAN ALL DA DEAD NIGGAZ
WHO BLOOD UNDA DA DIRT IN DA STREETS
DIED FOR NO REASON AT ALL CUZ
DEEZ FUCKED UP DOMESTIC N FOREIGN
LAWS WHEN YA AINT GOT A SHAWTY TO SHARE IT
N PPL WANT U DEAD FUCK BEING A BALLA
SEEMS LIKE ALL THESE WOMAN WANT MONEY
BUT DONT WANT A REAL NIGGA SO I STAY TO MYSELF
CUZ YALL STEALN MY TRACKS BUT DONT WANNA PAY
FOR EM FUCK DEEZ HATAZ THANKN QUIT CALLN
BEEN THROUGH ALL THIS SHIT THESE PEOPLE TALK
ABOUT STILL I RISE LIKE A ROSE IN CONCRETE ON A DEAD
END STREET WALKED WITH GOD THROUGH THIS LAND
OF DEATH VALLEY STREETS PRAYING FOR CHANGE
THE WORLD NEED PLEASE STOP THINK BREATHE
GOVERNMENT SPENDING CONTROLLING STREET POLITICS
MORE DRUG WARS MORE YOUTH DIE MORE FAMILIES
TORN APART MORE BLOOD DIP ME NO BLOOD OR CRIP
CLAIM EITHER ONE YEE BLOOD DRIP LIKE DA PANTHERS
FIST IN THE AIR CLAIMING MY INDEPENDENCE WHAT HAPPENED
TO THE GAME BACK IN THE DAYS BLOOD CRIPS N GANGS
ACTIVISTS N NON PROFITS WAS FOR PROTECTING THE HOOD
NOW THESE CLOWNS THINK ITS ABOUT BANGING FOR A COLOR
IN THE WORDS OF JFK COLORS DONT HATE PEOPLE DO
GUNS DONT KILL PEOPLE PEOPLE DO
CULTURE,RACE,CLASS,STATUS ITS ALL IN YO MIND
BLIND LEADING DA BLIND STRAIGHT TO HELL I AINT FOLLOWING
I BEEN ON MY GRIND THE WORLD OWE ME FOR TAMPERING
WITH MY MIND BUT THEY DONT WANNA GIVE ME MIND.
WANT ME TO SPEND MY LOOT AT YO SHOW BUT WHEN IT
COME TIME FOR MINE YALL AINT NOWHERE TO FIND
BEEN THROUGH ALL THIS SHIT THESE PEOPLE TALK
ABOUT STILL I RISE LIKE A ROSE IN CONCRETE ON A DEAD
END STREET WALKED WITH GOD THROUGH THIS LAND
OF DEATH VALLEY STREETS PRAYING FOR CHANGE
THE WORLD NEED PLEASE STOP THINK BREATHE
I HEARD IM HATING EVERYBODY TALKING NOBODY LISTENING
I AINT BOUT DRAMA IM BOUT REALITY AND POSITIVE LIVING
YET MANY WANT MY EXISTENCE CO HERANT FUCK YOU CODE
OF SILENCE YA HATE SMILE IN MY FACE STAB ME IN MY BACK
TYPE OF KATZ CHASE YO BROAD THEN TALK ABOUT ITS ALL GOOD
WHAT TYPE OF SHIT IS YALL ON YALL FOUL SON LIKE A WORLD FULL
OF WOMAN & ALL DA MEN IN JAIL WILL I ESCAPE HELL
YOU DONT KNOW MY PAIN YOU DONT KNOW MY STRUGGLE
I BEEN THROUGH ALL THE SHIT NIGGAZ YAP ABOUT
THEY PROBABLY SEEN IT ON TV BUT AINT LIVE IT OUT
THAT GANGSTER SHIT IS WHAT I USED TO BE ABOUT
NOW IM ON A DIFFERENT ROUTE TRYING TO USE THIS
MUSIC TO CHANGE THE MINDS OF YOUNG ONES WHO GROWING
UP LIKE ME WITH DYSFUNCTIONAL FAMILIES N HATING ASS NEIGHBORS
PLAYAS LAUGHING WHEN YOU DOWN TALKING DOWN ON YA NAME
CATCHING VAPORS STEAD OF KEEPIN IT REAL WIT A PLAYA
I SHOULD BE RAP GOVERNOR STREET MAYOR IF YOU READ MY BOOKS
TALKED TO ME THEN YA WOULDN'T BE SPECULATING
WIT A HATEFUL I I SEE YOU HATEFUL GUYS STILL I RISE
BEEN THROUGH IT ALL SHED A NEW SKIN LIKE A SNAKE
EVERY FALL WHILE YALL WANTING ME TO FALL SPIRITUALLY I BALL
DONT LIKE ME KILL ME OR SUE I DONT LIVE FOR YALL
I LIVE FOR GOD SAVE ME AND THE YOUTH WHO CANT SEE
STRAIGHT BEING LIED TO BY THESE DEVILS IN GOVERNMENT
OTHER CULTURES AND HATERS IN THEY OWN RACE.
BEEN THROUGH ALL THIS SHIT THESE PEOPLE TALK
ABOUT STILL I RISE LIKE A ROSE IN CONCRETE ON A DEAD
END STREET WALKED WITH GOD THROUGH THIS LAND
OF DEATH VALLEY STREETS PRAYING FOR CHANGE
THE WORLD NEED PLEASE STOP THINK BREATHE
ARE YOU GETTING BURNED ON ROYALTIES?
IN THIS DAY AND AGE ALWAYS COPYRIGHT YOUR MUSIC. IF YOUR IN THE MUSIC BUSINESS FOR MONEY THEN OF COURSE DO IT THE RIGHT WAY AND COPYRIGHT EVERYTHING YOU DO. IF YOUR IN IT JUST TO MAKE GOOD MUSIC THEN DONT WORRY ABOUT THE MONEY BUT IF YOUR A MUSICIAN AND YOU WANT TO MAKE MONEY FROM YOUR MUSIC ALWAYS READ THE FINE PRINT. DONT RECORD A BUNCH OF SONGS UNLESS YOU HAVE A LABEL DEAL AND HAVE A LABEL WHICH WILL ADVANCE YOU MONEY YOU FEEL IS SUITABLE. ITS HARD TO TRACK DOWN ALL THOSE GOOD SONGS. ALOT OF ARTIST GET RIPPED OFF BECAUSE OF HACKERS AND SPYING. HOW CAN ALL THAT BE CONTROLLED WHEN THERE ARE WAY TO MANY BLACK MARKET RINGS AND COMPUTER HACKERS WITH WAYS OF AVOIDING DETECTION OF YOUR SOFTWARE AND YOUR KNOWLEDGE OF FINDING THEM. MY BEST WISH IS TO MAKE SURE IF YOU FEEL PLAYED TRACK DOWN THE COMPANY THAT PLAYED YOU AND DONE YOU WRONG. TAKE THEM TO COURT DO THINGS THE LEGAL WAY. BUT MOST TIMES THESE COMPANIES CANT BE FOUND AND IF THEY ARE FOUND THEY CHANGE NAMES AND START UP ALL OVER AGAIN. SO MY BEST WISH TO ANY ARTIST IS MAKE SURE YOU UNDERSTAND. ANY HOBBY OR ANY CRAFT CAN BE STOLEN AND SOLD AND USED AGAINST YOUR WILL ITS CALLED FAIR USE OR FREE TRADE ITS IN THE CONSTITUTION. IF YOU WANT TO GET PAID FOR YOU WORK THE COPYRIGHT IT. IF YOU DONT MAKE MONEY FROM IT OR IF A WEBSITE DOES NOT MAKE MONEY FROM IT THEN THEY CAN USE IT. BUT AS SOON AS A PENNY OR ANY MILLIONS OF DOLLARS ARE MADE THEN THE ORIGINAL BENEFACTOR ARTIST SHOULD BE PAID FOR THE TIME EFFORT OF YOUR WORK. BUT LETS JUST BE HONEST. UNLESS YOU HAVE THE MONEY TO TAKE THE CASE TO COURT ITS BEST TO JUST KNOW YOUR WORK IS GOOD ENOUGH TO BE USED TO MAKE MONEY JUST MAKE YOUR WAY AND YOULL BE HEARD. I HAD A SIMILAR SITUATION WHERE ARTISTS WOULD TAKE MY LYRICS SONGS AND BEATS. I WOULD HEAR MY STUFF EVERYWHERE. DID I GET A ROYALTY CHECK. YEA BUT WAS IT ENOUGH TO LIVE OFF PAY BILLS BUY CLOTHES FOOD AND VACATION LIKE PLATINUM ARTIST NOPE. SO SINCE THE MUSIC INDUSTRY HAS NO UNION AND IF YOU TRY TO CONTACT A BUNCH OF LABELS AND ARTIST. IT WILL TAKE A LONG TIME AND YOULL BE DISAPPOINTED. BECAUSE BY THE TIME YOU TAKE ONE ARTIST TO COURT THE OTHERS WILL BE ALERTED AND WILL AVERT TO OTHER MEANS TO AVOID YOU. SO NEW ARTIST JUST BE AWARE THERE ARE ALOT OF SHARKS IN BUSINESS OF MUSIC PERIOD. SO JUST MAKE SURE YOU HAVE LOYAL PEOPLE AROUND YOU IF NOT. YOU FEEL SORRY IN THE END IF YOU DONT HAVE A LOYAL CAMP.
Investment Club Join Me
i am trying to start an investment club. a club where artist that want to form a union in the music industry. when labels turn down artist or when artist cant get paid royalties and retire from music its not like sports or regular jobs you leave with the money you made. so im trying to form a union so artists can have healthcare,medical,investment options,schools of education for there children, home schooling maybe,gardens where the artist grow food which can be medicine and not based on the bad food from fast food companies or big farma, im trying to form a union where artists are raising a culture where its based off the money you put in to help the whole. Those who join have to donate time money energy and there talents. Like say you can design websites right then we could make videos about my cause distribute it on the website and the people who join give them photo shoots for low prices in todays economy. i have tried this once but it went bad because some guys wanted to take over and lost focus of the union which is about those who join to help all the people joining the union. the union is about equal oppurtunity to those artists and regular people who join which would like to lend there talents. If this sound like something you would be interested in let me know.
sucks to know sum ppl work hard go to college up to a masters degree to gain these types of houses and jobs to have these kinds of houses while some ppl are handed these kind of houses in their teens and the money to go with it. what kind of sick world do we live in life aint fair. i mean it really sucks to know a person can work so hard for something their whole life then ppl can just come and take it away. im not so sure of the american dream anymore. its not all what its cracked up to be. id rather live in a bamboo hut in thailand jamaica carribean or bora bora tahiti or taiwan or ghana or maldives then spend half my life in college and work to get this house only to lose it to dumb people in government or war or terrorism or gangs or spies or computer hackers or violence you get the picture.
POTENTIAL INVESTORS I HOPE SO FINGERS CROSSED
NO COMMENT AND THIS COMES FROM A BROTHER STEEPED IN AFRICAN CULTURE BUT STUCK IN WESTERN CULTURE. THE DILEMA IS WHY DONT WE AFRICAN AMERICAN HAVE TIES TO AFRICA AND VICE VERSA ADN WHY IS THIS SILLY CONVERSATION TAKING PLACE ABOUT WHAT A AFRICAN IS OR ISNT. AFRICANS ARE A MUTIL CULTURAL GROUP OF PEOPLE MIXED WITH RACES OF ALL KIND WHICH SPREAD OUT OVER THE WORLD OVER CENTURIES. SO THE STRUGGLES OF OUR PEOPLE DONT END WITH THE BUILDING OF AFRICA AND MENDING BROKEN TIES TO OUR PEOPLE IN AMERICA AND AROUND THE WORLD. OUR STRUGGLE BEGINS WITH EDUCATING US ALL SO WE LEARN OUR TRUE HISTORY AND HERITAGE. MOST AMERICANS ONLY KNOW OF SLAVERY OF OUR PEOPLE AND THAT WE WOULD LIKE TO GO TO THE MOTHERLAND THOSE THAT CANT AFFORD TO. THE ONES WHO CAN AFFORD TO KNOW THE HISTORY AND KNOWLEDGE. BUT THE PROBLEM IS ON THE WORLD STAGE WE AS CULTURE OF MULTI RACIAL PEOPLE DONT HAVE A SOLID IDENTITY. WE STILL HAVE STRUGGLES AND FIGHTING AMONG US BECAUSE WE ARE SIMPLY PEOPLE. WERE WE ARE FROM HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH OUR STRUGGLE AS A CULTURE. YOU CAN HATE MY OPINION BUT THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS SOME AFRICANS DONT ACCEPT AFRICANS BORN IN AMERICA AND SOME AFRICANS FROM AFRICA DONT ACCEPT AFRICANS FROM AFRICA. WE STILL HAVE BLACKS FIGHTING KILLING EACH OTHER ON BOTH SOILS. WHICH IS WEAKENING US AS A PEOPLE ON THE INTERNATIONAL WORLD STAGE. HOW CAN WE EVER BECOME SOLID AND COMPETE AND UNITE AS ONE IF WE STILL HAVE SILLY DEBATES ABOUT WHOS BLACK ENOUGH OR AFRICAN ENOUGH. WE SHOULD BE HAVING DEBATES ABOU HOW WE CAN HELP EACH OTHER AS A WHOLE INSTEAD OF STEALING LOOTING KILLING DECIEVING ONE ANOTHER. BROTHERS AND SISTERS. WE HAVE COME SO FAR AS A PEOPLE BUT STILL HAVE SO FAR TO GO. HOW IS IT THAT WE HAVE MORE AFRICANS THAN ANY OTHER CULTURE ON THE PLANET BUT WE ONLY CONTROL TEN PERCENT OF THE PLANET.? CAN ANY OF YOU AFRICANS ANSWER ME THIS.? HOW COME WE IN AMERICA HAVE 70% OF OUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS LOCKED UP OVER HURTING EACH OTHER OR TO WESTERN CIVILIZATIONS LAWS BECAUSE WE TURNED OUR BACKS ON EACH OTHER INSTEAD OF HELPING OUR FELLOW MEN AND WOMEN AND THE SAME GOES IN AFRICA. WE HAVE LSOT BILLIONS OF OUR PEOPLE TO SENSELESS VIOLENCE OF RACE DISPUTES AND TRIBAL DISPUTES SKIN COLOR DISPUTES BUSINESS DISPUTES SHADY DEALINGS SEXUAL DISPUTES MONEY DISPUTES. WHEN THE DUST SETTLES ONE DAY WE WILL LOOK AT EACH OTHER AS A PEOPLE AND SEE WE ARE ALL THE SAME WE ALL COME FROM THE ONE MOTHER THAT BIRTHED A NATION OF STRONG WARRIORS WITH SPIRIT AND INTELLECT TO CONROL THE PLANET BUT WE STILL FIGHT AMONG EACH OTHER AND NOT SPEND OUR MONEY WITH EACH OTHER THAT IS THE PROBLEM. WE ARE SO BIZZY CAUGHT UP IN OUR LIVES WE CANT SEE THE GREAT BLOW WE ARE PUNCHING OUR CULTURE AS A WHOLE. WE CANT HAVE UNITY IN SOME PART OF THE WORLD AND NON UNITY AND DISFORMITY IN OTHERS. SOME DONT KNOW SOME DONT CARE AND THAT IS THE PROBLEM AS WELL. WE HAVE TO STOP VIOLENCE BETWEEN AND AMONG US PERIOD ALL OVER THE PLANET AND FIND BETTER WAYS TO UPLIFT AND UPHOLD OUR PEOPLE. YOU DONT EVEN HAVE TO BE FROM AEMERIKKKA TO SUFFER THE EFFECTS OF RACISM TO YOUR PEOPLE. WE SUFFER EFFECTS OF RACISM FROM OUR OWN BROTHREN AND SISTERS WHEN WE CANT MEND BROKEN TIES WITHIN OUR OWN FAMILIES BECAUSE WE FAIL TO WORK TOGETHER AND POOL OUR MONEY TOGETHER. CAN YALL SEE THE BIGGER PICTURE YET. LETS TAKE MONEY AWAY AND SEE IF YALL CAN STAND EACH OTHER. IF MONEY IS GONE AND YOU CANT BE AROUND YOUR OWN BRETHREN AND SISTREN THEN IT SHOWS THAT OUR PROBLEM STEM DEEPER THAN SCAMS MONEY BANKS LOANS SCHOOLS LAWS JUDGEMENTS TAXES CARS HOUSES CLOTHES SKIN TONES BODY PARTS PLACES OF BIRTH. OUR PROBLEM IS WE HAVE NO CULTURAL IDENTITY TO ACCLAIM AND CALL OUR OWN AS A PEOPLE. WE WILL NEVER HAVE UNITY AMONG US. WE WILL ALWAYS HAVE RACE BAITING CONSPIRACY AND THOSE AMONG US AND NOT AMONG US WHICH WILL TRY TO ALWAYS BRING US DOWN AND NOT SEE OUR PEOPLE UNITED. THERE WILL ALWAYS BE THOSE SELECT FEW WHO WISH TO SEE US HURT STRUGGLING AND NEVER ENJOYING THE FRUITS OF OUR LABOR. THERE WILL ALWAYS BE THOSE WHO WISH TO PROFIT OFF THE HERITAGE AND LEGACY OF OUR GREAT PEOPLE AND NEVER GIVE ANYTHING BACK TO SUCH A GREAT PEOPLE. THERE WILL ALWAYS BE THOSE WHO WISH TO EXPLOIT US AS A PEOPLE BECAUSE WE AS A PEOPLE FAIL TO REALIZE THE GREATNESS AND POWER WE HAVE AS ONE NATION OF PEOPLE. WE STILL FIGHTING OVER CRUMBS. WHILE THE REAL PIE IS US THE PEOPLE AS A CULTURE. WE HAVE TO NOT FOCUS SO MUCH ON MATERIAL THINGS AND CULTURE IDENTITY THAT WE FORGET OUR HISTORY WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO US AND THE KIND OF PEOPLE WE ARE. I WISH ONE DAY TO UNITE OUR BRETHREN FROM AFRICA AMERICA AND ALL OVER THE WORLD AND UNITE ALL PEOPLE BECAUSE ALL THE WARS NEED STOP BETWEEN OUR PEOPLE AND FROM OTHER CULTURE. APARTHEID EXIST ALL OVER THE WORLD UNDER DIFFERENT DEMISES YET WE FAIL TO REALIZE HOW POWERFUL WE ARE. WE LOVE OURSELVES SO MUCH WE FORGET WE HAVE A GREAT MOTHERLAND MISSING MOST OF ITS CHILDREN WHICH ARE SCATTERED OUT ALL OVER THE WORLD. YES WE ALL KNOW THE RUMORS OF US IF WE ALL GO BACK WELL BE BOMBED UNTIL THERE IS NONE OF US LEFT. BUT EVERYDAY WE ARE BEING BOMBED WITH FALSE HOPES FALSE DREAMS FALSE CHARITIES FALSE MONEY FASLE REALITIES OF US EVER HAVING A BETTER FUTURE NOW PRESENT UNTIL ETERNITY. I PRAY FOR YOU ALL MY BRETHREN BECAUSE WE ARE A SPIRITUAL TROPICAL PEOPLE WHO LOVE TO FIGHT AMONG EACH OTHER YET FAIL TO REALIZE THE GOD IN EACH OTHER AND HOW BEAUTIFUL WE ARE WITHOUT WESTERN AND THE WORLDS BEUATY STANDARDS BEING PUSHED ON US. I LOVE YOU ALL EVEN IF YOU ALL MAY NOT LOVE ME. PEACE BROTHER FROM ANOTHER MOTHER LESSONS IN LIFE P TRILLA HOPE THIS MESSAGES FINDS THOSE IN HARD TIMES AND THOSE WHO NEED TO HEAR IT AND THOSE WHO CAN MAKE THE NECESSARY CHANGES TO HELP US ALL. WE AL HAVE TO HELP ONE ANOTHER SOME HOW SOME WAY UNTIL WE CAN ALL SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL AND KNOW WHATS ON THE OTHER END IS MEANT FOR US HOTEP.
What Is Your Number One Concern For 2012 ?
1. Going into Business?
Going into business is essential to survival so yes i want to continue being in business which can make a profit.
2. Recruiting more reps?
the thing about recrutiing reps is will reps get lazy tired or see a great oppurtunity and leap on it while its good then leave when its bad or try and take over or steal from one another so. maybe if i had reps i could trust then i would need new recruits but after my current mishaps in business and losing major finances to reps and careless activity i am not sure whether i want to continue in business by myself or with reps. but i would hate to let a good business go to waste. because i cant find loyal employees. but i understand times are hard.
3. Making more money?
of course i want to make alot money that is the main goal to have alot time freedom.
4. Losing weight?
i try to lose weight on a regular basis but its not so much my looks or losing weight i try to keep in shape so my body wont be frail or fragile in my older age years.
5. Beginning a workout program?
i workout regularly but sometimes i get burned out so its hard to workout. but i do have a good exercise plan where i see results on my body very fast.
6. Spending more time with family?
well i like spending time with family that is the main goal of business to earn alot of money to have vacations and spend time with family.not to sound funny but i have one of those families where its hard to do business with them because they like to borrow things without returning it money,supplies,products, etc lol.
1. Are you frustrated?
i am frustrated i might lose my earnings and net worth to unscrupulous characters or til bad health or to violence so yes i am frustrated a lil bit but i am not worried i feel god has a plan for me which has not been implemented yet. I have suffered alot of tragedies and im still standing so i am blessed so i cant complain.
2. Are you tired and running out of gas?
i get tired because i get bombarded with alot of the same information that burns me out after a while i get tired of trying to help myself help others and get no help in return but bad attitude so at times i do get burned out but i never lose sight of building a business meant to make profit.
3. Are you getting the support you need?
Alot of times i feel banks,loan officers,credit card companies, are not as nice and false advertising their services to me. at times i feel like the debt they put me in is not worth the trouble to pay it off. so alot of times i feel i am not getting the support i need financially mentally emotionally and physically. in order to truly feel a success i have to have those four elements otherwise any person going hard at one certain time on many projects will burn out and give up. i have many times because i didnt have the financial mental legal support i needed. so yes i do need support but so not much as to where my supporters feel i am relying on them for everything because i am well capable of handing alot by myself but it would be nice to have support when i write letter to companies to ease up a lil bit lower my credit interest and loan rates gosh they spanking me hard like a new born baby geez let up a little please lol.
4. Are you happy and successful - please share?
at first i though the american dream was go to school find a job buy a apartment then once your pay scale goes up and you finish your degree buy a house a better car and spend time with family on holidays about all the great things you acheived over the years. Man well i was wrong they never tell you how much student loan debt youll be paying off until your dead basically. the credit card loans youll be paying off until your dead basically financially. the loans on your house and other amenities which will be hard if you find a job not in the field of your degree which will mean having a job below your pay scale. they never tell you how the real world education is nothing like college education the two are totally different. they never tell you how investing in companies which can go bust and you can lose everything in one day can ruin all those years of going to college and working hard. they never tell you how owning a business or forming a corporation can land you in prison or jail if on of the employees decide to use your name in some kind of criminal activity without your express written consent or by forging your signature. they never tell you how years of being in business can be ruined over night. they never tell you how the information you learn can basically be of no use. I mean by the time you finally reach success youll be old burnt out and not even really able tot enjoy it because youll be to old to go anywhere. lol. but honestly sucess to me was not just making money but being able to help people but they never tell you how people will steal try to hurt you and turn they back on your for creating a non profit organization or donating to charities or forming corporations meant to help them. gotta read between the lines. they never tell you how family and friends sometimes can become jealous and hate your suceess when the american dream is available to anyone person with enough drive and eagerness to attain it and handle it for a lifetime. sucees is a heavy burden. once you have it you have to maintain it and its not easy like most people claim it is. because there are alot of elements which come with being happy and wealthy that alot of rich wealthy folks would care not to explain how they attain such hugh amounts of wealth. but if you ask me after all i have went thru to attain it the funerals of family friends and foes. Losing lots of money over the years to start up ventures. people always asking for money or taking it. through all that and even some death threats. i would say its not worth when you look at it from a reality perspective but in order to survive it is worth it because i dont wanna be homeless. i guess id have to say i would put up with anything to achieve the wealth i feel i so rightfully deserve. i feel like ive been thru 200 tours of duty in different wars thru out the world to achieve my level of wealth so if i can go thru all of that all over the world and make it out alive then i guess its worth it. so yes i am suceesful because to me it is the sum of getting other people to agree with my ideas and alot of people have agreed with my ideas and supported me over the years but i have had alot of misfortunes due to bad reps in my camp. i dont blame them they just could not handle the level of business i was into and how far i would go with my business. when it comes to being happy lord jesus have mercy on me. being a business man has nothing to do with being happy as the saying goes "if it aint no fun then it aint worth the path to travel down it" but see all business aint fun imagine being a librarian boring to people who are into sports parties vacations exotic trips fast cars hot bodies and fast money right. but lets say what if you were raised in alaska have no internet no television don't have any idea what the outside world is like being a librarian is perfect because you get to read new books and learn about the world through what other people say about their business or their fun or pleasure. so then books become your friends because when its cold like in alaska you cant get out and party much depending on where you live. so you see being happy depends on your lifestyle. and my life style to me happiness is peace quiet respect love and faithfulness from a deserving spouse. have i attained that to be admired from my peers family friends somewhat but not really until i discovered being happy is not finding life in material things but finding love in being better at anyone else at anything so yes i am very happy. because i know i am alot better than alot of people at everything. so im happy in that sense but as far as finding happiness in material things no not so happy in that department.
UNTITLED : LUST LOVE BROKEN HEARTED EMPTY SOUL
I think it is sad to know that a relationship which has lasted for so many years had to come to an end.
I think if two people have been together for so long that they
would work out there differences and youd know a person but,
These days it seems like financial as wel as temptation and not knowing a person fully can leave a good thing
going bad and i cant stand it when love turns to hate.
Although i know not what caused your relationship
to fail i do hope that we can become good friends and experence a natural life together whether it be
clean talk to parks,beaches, and enjoy nature i dont really get into the regular scheme of what
adults like to call entertainment because activities that are about money and not really preserving
the quality of the soul dont really grab my attention.
I am a freak by nature so i love the outdoors.
I love the arts but as an artist i can say that some art is not worth my time and sacrifice because
look at the state of the world what art has changed the world same as entertainment so im a natural person
and the more you get to know me you soon see i am living modern times in ancient ways of our forefathers,
ancestors and the indigeonous spirits of the native indians whom souls call my spirit and those whom look
down upon us from heaven to guide me in this crazy world from negative and to live a life which has meant to
be natural.
I dont like drama and games and im a person you can trust. I believe that a relationship is not made
just from chemistry but from past lifes and the people you meet in this life are people whom you have had previous
relationships with before in past lives until the cycle is perfected and fixed and all souls are aligned til infiniti and all
spiritual battles are won and conquered for the greater of human kind and all species and to form a bond of unity on all
levels of life forms until all human suffering stops.
All what we say and do is spiritual so i live in the outer realm of life
and naturality. I hope i did not say to much but only to allow a glimpse into my soul and what i believe a relationship should
exist of. souls mate but fate is determind catch my drift until all human kind can become one eternally there will always be
breakup,disease,famine,poverty,control,suffering,lie,wrongful death,so on and so on til the cycle of the garden of eden
is fixed and all life is restored to blind faith and belief and GOD and not wordly ways on all human kind and ignorance of
unintentional or intentional hate and ignorance.
I believe a relationship is based on honesty is key to everything for good relations
and in a world where the external is more important than the internal and eternal the immortal spiritual battle to save all souls
and create true spiritual connections will continue.
I enjoy all foods and try to eat healthy but i feel if its meant for me to die due
to the food i eat or bad thoughts then GOD has decided that i am to good for this world so shall the good die young and evil live
forever until the errors are fixed on all levels of spirituality. I dont enjoy so much as to be secluded from the world but to give my
spirit unwilingly to transcend to those who accept it to know it and love it and learn from it what i can learn from yours and others.
I feel that i am the atmosphere of life i create and i am the art i wish to compel so i live within because to accept which what is not
true to your spirit and know it and out right sin yet nobody is perfect for i push for the day when all life is living in harmony and to
not harm either one physically,emotionally,spirtually.
If you can see yourself having relations with a natural man than i accept you
words to your soul.
For me a relationship is not to change a person but to under and over stand them so two people can see past what this world
is made of what it tries to make us yet more what two people can become together despite the rough odds in troubling times and rich or poor.
knowing or un knowing.
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Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Trillion Dollar Science Lab Loan Vaccine Update
ahem ahem ahem ahem ahem attention inside my brain as i clear my throat and go for morning jog to clear my head from the hectic attacks of people from international gangs trying to sabotage my plans of foiling their global agenda to take over the world in order to have the lifestyle of the rich and famous.
this is @PTRILLA FROM @PHATBEATZNT you can chat with me on twitter or any network social profile if your about bringing positivity in your life or community.
Recently and since a young child i have been trying to find a cure for cancer,aids,diabetes,hepatitis,blindness,arthritis,alzheimers,mental and physical retardation of the loss of limbs and helping those whom cant walk walk again and those who suffer severe physical pain to have treatment options through the medicines and cures i have perfected and now know of which these people in their evil corporations whom i have went to countless investor summits angle investors and philanthropist and contacts many of billionaires to ask them for loans so i can become a just as if not as wealthy as them. but my goal was not to profit from the pain like them medical industry big wigs to make people sick. My goal was heal people with music,proper exercise and herbal remedy.
I wont say that i have found the cure i wont say that i know how to cure every living disease known to man women child plant animal and any living being. I wont say i have the cure but i will say i have perfected it enough inside the Dna gemone to where i know how to rid the world and society of disease of any kind. Not just the disease of mental health physical bad health but of generational spiritual curses as well. I have tried countless time again to explain to those people with control of our lives in those evil corporations that i only am a small player on their big global universal field and i want in. but yet they wont let me in. they wont let me cure the people who are just like me sick and tired of being poisoned shot drugged giving medicine which only makes your health worse or forced to live a life less then previously you want because your health is so bad you care less to work a job or have money or the war violence or the war on drugs terror aka which is really a war on the poor so the wealthy and their global gangs can keep taking control of our society and world with them controlling the profit sectors and holding people like me Doctors ball players entertainers and politicians and people in positions of power hostage so they can control the show not the entertainment show the life show the show where they want to use every tactic known to man to keep us inside their profit game.
The profit game to ruin as much as our health as possible so they can create some funny placebo drug which is 90% sugar and 10% medicine which only leads to a further sickening and ruining of your health. I want to open my own trillion dollar science lab. I have applied to the government. I have applied to the united nations i have applied to these aggress gangs and terrorists actually and even street drug gun running gangs to not be my enemy but to back me to help me change humanity for us all. But through cover ups mass murder and small pockets of terror and global war and their bossess giving them kill orders to keep people like me mouths shut so they can keep profiting and committing random acts of violence so they can keep profiting i have failed miserably. For one monkey dont stop no show more like one man cant fight no global terrorists gang with military style weapons used against me. Its just impossible to stop those people who have all that money and all those weapons. I really dont care to have a billion dollar house and million dollar cars and extravagent vacations to all the exotic hot spots around the world where the elite play and lay and have orgy parties and pill popping parties where they share the cures for everything and decide our lives daily.
I mean i would like to have that lifestyle but they refuse to accept me they dont want a african american to run the world. they want to keep profiting from the pain of poor people like me. Yes my assests which were confiscated due to what i wrote in this blog and on this essay for the moment are gone because of it. Yet if they were to ever stop for a minute and read this message if i could find a translator as a foreign diplomatic ambassador and foreign national. To put this message into every language for me to get those people to read hear see and understand hey i want no problems with you i am just as madd as you but you dont see me joining no gangs and killing people just because your bosses or heads of companies or leaders of your gangs or whomever religious or cultural beliefs you guys have make me hurt people. Not i no not in million years. i want them people to see the same purpose they are madd im madd but they dont have to hurt innocent people they dont have to hurt people closed to me like they already have done. i want to change those people i want them to help me help people who are stuck in dead end jobs with bad health. stuck in poverty with lack of resources and bad health. people who have degenearative-disease and DNA blood line disease which is generational curse which i have the specifications for and know how to cure the evil instinct inside of humans where i could change the world if these evil corporations would give me the trillion dollar loan back i could change the whole world once and for all. I could. believe me.
Can i change the world? yes but not in this lifetime these people wont let me have the loan the lab and a dedicated team of devoted military,rebels,peace protestors ,doctors,lawyers,scientists, and any government official whom can help me secure the change and cure of changing the world for once and for all. I could fix everyone but yet due to this dirty little situation i find myself in where it seems like my own country has foreign terrorists foreign and domestic acting like americans trying to follow and copy my every move to stop me from bringing about world peace which i speak of so much in my songs and books and my whole life which is dedicated to peace and change and breaking into secure labs all across the globe to bring you the truth the real news on why i am being forced out into homeless turned down from being a home buyer turned down from having a family i am single i felt i need to mention that laugh( lol i hate being single) the reason why the women i have dated who were forced to abort their fetuses after pregnancy due to death threats from the global gangs terrorists and other evil corporations whom are in control of us poor people lives. I am stuck with all the answers it seems and no help. I get tired of asking those people begging those people making songs to those people writing books to those people making websites and blogs and clothes and even as a activist i have done damage to facilities in the name of trying to let those people know i am tired of them denying me oppurtunity and denying me the chance to change not only my community but the lives of poor people like me disabled people like me legally deaf and partially blind and legally retard handicapped people like me whom through years of research and diet and exercise and configuring certain medicines and herbal remedy's. I have finally found the cure to all ailments.
The cure yes the cure i cant believe it. even to my enemies i know they wish for my death so they can profit from my death and keeping living unhealthy lifestyles and keep ruining the planet in the name of currency. But to the people whom love me and want to help me bring about change. I have not only been locked out of the NBA while on reserve as power forward and shooting guard for teams i cant say the names due to fear of death threats and possible random acts of violence because i dont want those evil corporations knowing my real name or where i really live or where i really go when im not at the games making a living by exercising and entertaining the public. Outside of sports this is who @PTRILLA really is. This is whats really on my mind this is how i really feel. For i have been a health nut healthy junkie since i was a young child. Not just since i was poisened aka shot back in elementary school and had my appendix and kidney removed. I am abnormal i dont have a normal body. I used to be able to play a full 60 minute game without feeling pain in my body for 85 games on a full season for five years like when i was not on reserve. Now that im on reserve and waiting to enter back into the league i find that these evil corporations and many other ball players whom want to speak the truth and entertainers are being locked out and forced out of our positions wealthy lives and the money we were so used to aint coming like it was. I know the owners dont give a damn about those people and i know they dont really give a damn about me now for speaking the truth but they are attacking me why are they hiring contract killers to track me down and use military style tactics which i was in the military so i know when my own weapons i used in every form are being used against me against me. Its ridiculous i wish i could get a translator or be let back into the United Nations building so i can speak this message to the world and to those evil corporations and those global gangs and crime families and mobs and mafias and militias that dont want me to suceed and changing the world why are you all hating on @PTRILLA. I only want to help you wounded soliders you mentally incompatent killers you classified as murderes rapist pshycopaths 5150 head cases not fit to be productive members of society due to the threat and level of danger you individuals bring into society and peoples lives and homes. i want to change these murderes and rapist. i want to clean the water systems which are poisoning us and the dirty drugs which are causing you all to act this way i want to change the joblessness which is causing you to commit crime i want to change your colleges places of employment and hospitals which have overworked and underpaid staff whom are educated properly to always help your cause need health problem or victimization from the individuals described within this global context.
I know i should not talk to them for those people are so stuck in their ignorant ways they could never change right but lets just say i could find a loan or i could find a way to get us whom are all family the human family the poor deaf blind sick shut in pass the internet to come together to fight back against those evil corporations im not advocating burning down their buildings where they keep the secrets to betterment of our health. I am not advocating picking up arms and firing on people in positions of power. Im not advocating burning down your homes and not working and only buying guns and ammo and growing your own food which is not GMO which controls your DNA and turns these people into the pshcopaths they are because they eating synthetic fake placebo food. which is controlling their minds and thoughts and making them think do and commit random acts of violence. NOt i no i am not advocating mass protest of billions of people on earth to look past cultural religious language age sex skin money color beliefs in order to bring about change in the world once and for all. i am not advocating for wealthy to finally admit they need stop bombing the planet and helping the homeless i am not advocating for the evil corporations to stop spreading disease and shipping poison into our water and communities universities and hospitals. I am not advocating for wealthy to stop forcing us poor colored folks into war and crime and prostitution and modern day slavery which is disguised as apartheid or third world living conditions which is really the same thing all over the world just disguised as poverty which is murder lack of resources is murder prison is murder globally being terrorrized by these people is murder either by technology by eavesdropping by illegal surveilance by threat of bombs or bullets or airbone illness contaminants for only aliens like myself i mean only certain abnormals cant survive these kind of attacks and poisons in your body. the truth is the truth i am not advocating for people to vote to abolish money which brings out the evil in all people. i am not advocating for people by the billions to quit their jobs and stop investing in the war machine or working on jobs where the money which comes out your check goes to police brutality or the death of some innocent american or foreign solider or gang member or terrorists which in turn keeps the cycle of negativity going.
The cycle of negativity which keeps violence rampant all over the planet in all facets in the name of currency not in the betterment of healthy church community. how do we break the cycle or should i say how can the world break the cycle. the cycle of violence and ignorance and lack of oppurtunities. well i mentioned a few sources here but i dont have all the answers. I need your help i need you to walk with me speak with me help me fight back against all the ignorance of all kind and if you speak english and many other languages and understand this message please translate this message. please print this essay and post it as a bulletin at your job at your university at your corporation at your church at any place your frequent if you really want to bring about change. It is going to take me some years to get my message out. For over the years the retaliation and revenge of what i wrote about this essay has been taking place and in my life which has made it hard for me to access the internet to speak to the technology world because of money being stolen from me time after time and my houses being looted and raided and my finances being frozen and my computers and lab equipment being damaged or ruined or tampered with when i had the samples and strains to actually take to these people to fund for a cure to fix all the problems stated within this context. Yet while always being forced out and away from bringing about the truth now i have medium where i can finally bring you the message from my point of view and finally let you know i found the cure despite me having to run or should i say losing my finances and cant afford my mortgage again this is the fiftenth house i am losing in the battle to bringing about the truth of what was going on in my life our lives poor people of color who care and those who may think i dont care who lack the chance to really know why they are the way they are. its not that they dont know better its that they dont care and they like being the way they are because they have been getting away with mass murder for so long its in their blood have you ever heard that term "its in the blood" yes thats not just some movie term that is a term used by doctors scientists and wealthy every day well not every day but when they decide hey so and so @PTRILLA or some rapper or musician or some entertainer or some foreign national or some gang or some terrorists or some government official or if you ever no matter where you are in the world or what click or title you hold choose to represent the truth well you know how the story ends. clean up on aisle nine(eye all 9 milimeter). but yet the clean up is a global clean up of the mess these people have made to our world will you help me clean up the world starting with the DNA the spirit of the body and society as mass of poor people. wake up when will you people realize that by hurting others you only hurting yourself in the end. what goes around truly does come around what you put out into the universe will come back to you karma is real spread and speak love not violence and hate.
Imagine the world as one family united as one not as many factions of definitions(zenz) not defined by cultural or religious or financial or societal customs. imagine the reasons the whole world is one caotic mess filled with evil of all kinds fixed. due to a break through in modern medicine which has not even been manufactured yet to the masses of people. yes i have the cure but the powers that be worldwide the evil corporations wont fund me or back me. I really dont need them to back me if every day regular people could give me a dollar. If i could create a campaign to raise enough money on my own i could build the lab and cure people and teach people the truth of what is really going on and how to stop all the wrongs of the world well lets just say you can stop it if you have a gun. but those evil people who make nuclear bombs and intend on using them are the reason why i have kept quiet for 25 plus years about their evil deals and doings for many people who tried to bring the truth the light well you know all over the world same story assissnation thats why its good to read about why people get assissinated. its not good to read about such a horrible crime .yet those events and i hate to see people die in such horrible way instead of living good until old and passing on through natural death not man made disease or some evil corporation disease or some gang disease or some crime family or some wealthy people creating disease only to profit from the hey we found a cure which really only makes your health worse to they can keep profiting from the bad health of you disease. yes i know those people are going to kill me and now you know why they are going to kill me because just like in the entertainment industry the truth is not accetable the truth is not profitable. It is only the educated mind which can speak and promote the truth the another educated mind but its the ignorant minds the careless wealthy drug gang terrorizing small community lack of oppurtunity givers i am speaking to the people in power who give kill order to take out people like me put me on kill lists so i cant expose their evil global agenda of exterminating 70% of the earth so they can enjoy whats left of the planet then rebuild it. im like that is the most stupid ass idea i have ever heard.
How do i know this well i have read over 50,000 books on these subjects some while incarcerated some while attending university cal berkely for my law degree some while in hospital when i was healing from being shot. some while being on sports team before practice i read as much as possible but this is not about me reading this global plan to cure the world of the DNA genome eating disease which is causing people to be violent towards one another and spread the disease to plant and nature life. Now this is about finding and producing and manufacturing the cure to the disease the cure to all ailment and all terminal illness and disease yes i have it. But problem is i might get killed and the world may never even know their was a cure for everything. I dont care anymore to keep my mouth shut for i have been threatened for 25 years of my life i have lost to many family and friends over the truthful books i have lost half my culture which in reality was mass murder and war crime and the culprits lets just say when they kill me you will never know who they are but if you know who they are the people who control your life and mine us poor people whom were once wealthy and living good then they decided to ruin our health kill our families ruin our communities abort our babies in the name of wealth or some secret agenda which is stupid as hell and ridiculous because they couldnt find the cure to fixing and helping those people not only that they couldnt help these people they didnt care to help those people anyway besides those people committed so many random acts of violence they would rather us poor people along with those criminals they hire be dead but they all cant see it they are guinea pigs in the global maze to going to be exterminated by whomever these people are whom they are using to kill my ppl to help they ppl and in the end all ppl will be exterminated why cant thosse dumb ass killers wake up and see the truth of light yall gonna be exterminated to if you dont let me cure you. my last words i forgive my enemies i quit. i quit not because i know the truth because i cant keep putting my life on the line to speak the truth to these people and they obviously dont care. just know i did care and i did wanna help you everyone but its those people who are controlln our lives who are keeping us down and away from the true meaning of why we humans even exist and why they create war to disguise the fact of why we exist wake up stop killing one another look beyond your gun look beyond your weapon look beyond your beliefs your human not gang member not terrorist not a solider not government official not title not a definition of any kind your human a sprit a being which is in the growing process of becoming something greater then what your physical body is. Dont let them keep tampering with your DNA and spirit resist the system resist the war resist ignorance which is ruining the world i am asking of you people to wake up and look beyond the life your living and question how you can contribute to stopping every way possible the death of all molecular life on planet earth.
I have the cure i want world peace i need money from the wealthy but they wont let me have the money they wont let me build my own lab to manufacture the cure. the cure i have is a cure which fixes the DNA gemone to kill off the evil instinct and disease causing instinct on molecular level in planet,nature,animal,human living. If i could get every person on earth to back me especially poor people and even some wealthy people who know the truth and want to change the world but cant cuz their being threatened to. I would have my way and dont think other wealthy people have not suffered the same fate they have you just never hear about it on the news or in books . Lets just say if i wasnt being threatend and told that by a hostile nation i cant say their name or which country cuz i have no idea where they from they might say they from somewhere but could be from another country you know how that game goes so i wont say names because its hard to put a name on them. I will say the lab i wished to run would of been to create not only a new perfect world but a world free of death pain sin destruction war disease mental & physical retardation.A world where the cure could fix the evils of all nations a cure which would kill the instincts inside nature plant animal human and other abnormal species to harm hurt kill maim toruture one another in any way shape or form. A world which is a perfect utopia. A world which could be a perfect utopia. Yet since these wealthy people and since i cant get regular everyday people to help me fund and donate to me trillions of dollars and help me build the lab made out of biodegradable and environmentally safe products and materials i cant help you world and i really wished i could of i am in tears while writing and thinking about knowing i could of changed this world but because of some stupid terrorrists and hostile nations i cant change the world and maufacture the cure. this is been my update on trying to find funding i have failed once again i am losing another house again and i am losing another source of technology to inform you on the whereabouts of my global travels again. peace @PTRILLA signing out from @PHATBEATZENT studios in a secret location somwhere in the world i have no idea where i am?
donate by clicking on my link or emailing me your checks or any financial sources you can think of. or opening an account where i can transfer the funds to a secret account i have waiting to fund the lab. i need your support help me help each other.
PEACE WORLD
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